Scales,i hate the figure you show

Okay, so i managed to get out of hosting a bbq last night.. but then i get invited to one...and the voice in my head sais "No0oooooo00oo0o!" I mean im not really an anti social person, i love going to see people..but bbqs...seriosuly watching them cook the meat with all the fat dripping off and everything is oil covered or marinated. yuck! I only went becuase it was my friends krystals 24th bday..but there was food everywhere and people were stuffing there mouths with bread rolls with fatty sausages and sqeezing an excessive amount of tomato sauce on top..i just couldnt bare it. I was going to be sick with the sight alone. I stayed strong..well atleast until she bought some cheese and crackers out, i thought i better not look to sqaure, and eat a couple, i didnt binge though i managed to control myself.. but this is exactly why i hate these kind of things, cos i know i will give in, even though i had already consummed by daily calories. grrrrrrrrrrrrr. annoyed at myself...and i never eat past 7pm so the food probly hasnt even digested, hence why i have a bloated stomach today :( damm! double damm! While i was in krystals bathroom i couldnt help but notice the scales, just sitting on the floor looking at me. wtf..i was talking to myself asking myself should i see..or not..? fuck it, ill look anyway..wasnt happy with the numbers..but i usually weigh myself in the morning, so hopefully it will be nicer to me today ;)

On new years i broke 6 ribs, and with all the pain it caused me, it actually gave me an exuse not to eat..although i wish i was abit more stricter on myself then...it could of helped me alot now ..but dont go out and break your ribs, it fucking hurts like a mofo! you cant sneeze,cough,laugh..and hic-cups are hell itself! it fucked me for 6-8 weeks..and i kept re-breaking them..by accident..i hit a metal tray into my ribs at work, just when they were starting to heal..but i must say i enjoyed the time off, i would go out to the local beer garden and sit with my friends in the sun......You may be wondering how i broke my ribs? ..well its called being drunk, sitting on a water bed next to a pool with about 20 people crammed on..and some idiot jumps out of the pool and onto the bed, and i was on the edge and i went flying and landed on a brick that was in the shape of a triangle standing up and CRACK!..that fucken tickled abit, shit :(

..another reason why i dont like to drink is becuase even though it hurt, i was so overly drunk i didnt notice i actually broke them until the next day. thank god i dont drink anymore, i do not miss the injuries.

Anyways.....time to plan meals for the day:

b: 1 wholemeal slice of bread w. 1 poached egg

l: 2 vita wheat crackers w. spinach,low fat cheese,tomato,thin slice of ham

s: frozen yoghurt,low cal jelly

d: -

Much needed thinspo:

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stay thin & strong!
xx