Alright so im totally sneaking onto the work computer to write this blog entry hehe..!! naughty me! Anyway yesterday i had an encounter with abit of mia,woot. my boss just passed me a peice of cake and i was dumb & weak enough to take it and eat it, but i had a little and then went into the toilet and threw it up, i was kinda happy with myself..is that strange??? I then wrinsed my mouth with water cos i had the acdic taste in my mouth yuck! ewwwwwwwwww
So..for the rest of the day i put a elastic band around my wrist and snapped it incase i felt like binging out and i....WAIT. . . . just got interupted by the fat boy at our work who is eating cake..FFS (for fuck sake) i need privacy here. well his gone cos i told him i need privacy to write something important...well where was i..oh yes, the lacky band helped me out heaps..and it kinda worked but i kinda got over it after a few hours and decided to log onto my blogger account and print out some thinspo and carry it in my pocket..that pretty much worked ;D yays.
Well last night got an un expecting suprise visit from this girl kelly, i mentioned her before in my blog i didnt really like her, but i came home and my boyfriend had invited her and her boyfriend tristan over to have a few drinks cos he saw them in the supermarket..so when i got home looking like a peice of shit after a hard days work smeling like cooking oil, she is sitting on my lounge all dolled up..and i was in a little bit of shock cos the first thing i though was 1. what the fuck is she doing here and 2. i look like shit, holy shit hurry into the bedroom and change clothes!!
lucky its my house so i could check out what she was wearing and make myself look better..im abit of a weirdo i know..its just the way i think..im a very jelous kind of girl..but after i was chtting to her for like 5 hours i realised i was just being a bitch to her before for no reason, its all in my head.. and i actually really enjoyed her company..her dad died and i didnt say i felt sorry for her cos theres nothing i could do, but i said it must be extremmely hard for her loosing some one who was so close for so many years...i actually didnt want her to leave by the end i wanted her to stay over...
so yesterday i have learnt, not to be such a biaaaatch to everyone for no reason, i just am always paranoid that everyone is out to hurt me or soemthing..but i have been burnt alot from girls so thats probly why..well its like a weight has lifted off my chest for not being so negative..i will still be jelous probly but i wont take it out on them i dont think...they dont really deserve my evil wrath of bitchiness i spose.
well intake is:
b: muesli w skim milk & strawberries
s: yoghurt & bran
l: mixed salad: chicken,lettuce,cheese,egg,tomato,cucumber & balsmaic dressing
d: - nothing (like always)
well keep thin & beautiful i will post some more pictures as i dont have any cos im on my work computer...so it must be a boring post today listening to all my blabbering..hehee.
well gtg ciao ciao