Ahoy me skinnies! ♥

Helllloooo i seem to be missing in action at the mo' sorry guys!! I dunno what i been doing lately to be honest..im still fighting myself and my weight..nothing new there i spose. I think ive been a real slack ass.

Well went n did some "man shopping" today with my old friend dylan aka. "dylanger" because he dosnt like to have a boring name lol. We were joined at the hip almost everyday for all of our high school years, he also went through the same thing as me, batteling with weight...he was really really fat (hard to belive) and he has lost over 40 kilos!! Im so proud of him, girls now come up to him and say his really hot but he tells them to fuck off cos they never liked him before when he was fat. which i think is fair..but people do look better when they are skinnier i spose. Soo0o we went to cotton on and dressed in some pretty outrageous clothes.heres some photos i took on my phone, i dressed him in these! lmao!!:

Um yeah we have really big bags, we could almsot fit in them haha..well we tried to climb in but the shop person was lookin at us like we were on crack or somethin haha.I know, i still look like a fat blob..but the clothes im wearing dont really help either..what was i thinking.??????And this is my most recent photo, i know im looking abit fake and very fat :S but i plastered on the make up cos i was going out :) lol. true kalgoorlie style. stfu anyway if u dont like it lol. Most girls look like they have concrete caked onto their faces and you could get a trowel and scoop it off LOL. i got the hell ghetto earrings happening there ;D cha ching!

Anyway since i have had a really big fat day with an overload of fatty food and binging i have decided to go on strike with food again. im just not gonna eat as much during the day..and since its my 2 days off im just gonna sleep so i dont eat. yeppp. sounds good to me! Me and my friend lexi are having a competition who can loose the most weight in 2 months. and we decided who ever wins is gonna shout the other person a trip to bali...like bali is so cheap so its only a $100 flight and some accomadtion..so its only like a $500 bet..which i dont wanna loose lol!! I guess it gives me abit of motivation aswell. so FUCK YOU FOOD. muwahahahahaha.

Next friday i get my new tattoo on my foot, its gonna be dardy as! Ill post piccys! Well im really not looking forward for next week i have to work a week straight..gay. :( but i get 4 days off and im soo going sun baking in the beer garden at judds. woop woop. ill take my dylan and we'll sit out in the sun all day. yay. i need to work on my tan its heaps fading and im all pasty n shit. shudder shudder shudder.

Well in my last post i said i was gonna scan a page from my fitness diary, i will do that on monday kk. ;) I need some snack ideas..im kinda just sticking to watermelon at the moment..but its kinda sugary and yoghurt makes me feel fat now. maybe just chewy gum or pumpkin seeds? id love to hear your suggestions guys!!

stay thin & pretty♥ xo

Fighting Off Cakes,Cookies & Chocolate!!!?!?! =D

Felt pretty damm good when i woke up this morning..didnt eat anything after 6pm last night and am feeling the reward this morning ;) I had a 21st on last night but didnt end up going becuase it was a wednesday night and i didnt wanna binge after a hard days effort of resisting eating wedges & sour cream. Mmmmmm okay i work as a chef, if you didnt know that from my previous posts & such well now you know..i work with a chef who is 5 star trained in desserts, and omfg i love his food. his the bomb...but i hate it when he makes nice cakes!!! & his always saying how fat my ass is ;( damm. oh well elast he reminds me he could just not say anything then watch me explode at the sides. There is this lady at work and shes abit of a cougar, but not a very good looking one,lol, she preys on younger men and she wears these tight pants and you can see her g-string line..makes me sick. she has a huge stomach aswell..plus her hair cut dosnt help..it looks like a mushroom on her head lol lol!! im so mean but i love it ;p

Alright skinnies i need to find a subsitute for chocolate/cakes..i tried drinking hot milo..but milo is full of sugar. i have found these ice creams that are probly pretty fattening but have 300 cals..so if i eat that that is like one whole meal for the day for me and a snack lol..i try to eat frozen rasberries but i just want the taste of chocolate ;( help!

Do you know what is really weird, i can eat the same thing for months on end..i counted for 4 months straight i ate baked beans on 2 salada crackers with cream cheese for lunch every day and i friggen loved it so much i couldnt stop eating it, its not very fattening, and you can get low fat cream cheese..it sounds like a strange thing to eat..i kind of accidently just made it up one day and decided it tasted good and just kept eating it!!..but i did loose alot of weight, i mean that was my whole meal for the day plus a milo..not a very nutritional diet for anyone but i enjoyed eating it hhaha, plus it was summer so i was sweating alot and always walking around,shopping, lots of sexy time (LOL) and forgetting to eat..which is why i probly lost so much weight in the first place. I probly eat better now than i have ever did before becuase i care more about nutrients & vitamins.. i try to look after myself. sometimes. lol

So today gonna have a me day, going to pluck my eyebrows (cos waxing increases wrinkles on your face) shave my legs, paint my toe nails & fingers, get a hair chop, facial treatment & might go down to the local gym and get a spa massage, im in need of relaxation ;) then off to work to hang with my girls porscha & alexia..lucky we all work together! :D

Alrighty enough with my chattering, intake for today is:

b: 1 slice of wholemeal toast w. 1 scrambeled egg with chopped tomato,chives,low fat cheese,salt & pepper

l: garden salad w spinach,tomato,cucumber, baked chicken with tuscan spice & salt & pepper, laughing cow cheese

s: 1 weetbix or frozen yoghurt

d: - nothing again :D

Have a nice day my pretties ;)
xo

I eat numbers not food =D

Okayyy so this is me (look at those flabby arms, my legs are worse!) people think that the blonde girl in the picture on the right is me, but that is the image i find attractive in a girl..healthy,smiling and thin =D I hope no one from my town reads my blog lol, oh well you get that. i wish i was more skinnier, i cant help but count the caloric content in my head; everytime i eat something it has a number on it, i dont see food i see numbers. I keep letting myself down by eating rocky road, fuck WHY am i so addicted to sweet things & chocolate..sure it makes me feel happy for a moment but makes me miserable later. evil evil rocky road. Well on the positive side of things alexia and porscha are now my gym bum buddies hehe we have gym dates which is really good, i need some extra motivation to get my ass out of bed. i love them to bits, they are the most awesomest chicks you'll ever meet and we all want to loose weight. plus plus ++

also..

lexi was talking about these horse tablets?? not sure what they are but shes getting some and what they do is they highten your body temperature by 1 degree so it makes your body sweat and you loose a kilo a day, your sposed to stay on them for 3 weeks and then go off them cos your body builds up antibodies for them or soemthing..sounds abit iffy i dont wanna mess with tablets that are ment for horses, i dont want to have a heart attack either..but id friggen love to loose a kilo a day!! fuck yerr!

time to plan my meals today:

b: muesli w skim milk - 300 cals, its probly not but i like to overadd my cals so that if ive miscalculated somewhere ive made up for it, but im sure its like 200-250 cals ;)

l: 2 vita wheat crackers w. spinach,tomato,lauhghing cow cheese -lets say 250 cals to be safe

s: frozen yoghurt- 80 - 90 cals depending on brand & flavour

d: - nothingg. yepp lovin goin to bed on a empty stomach feel so good in the morning!!

well im off to do abit of shopping therapy!! i need some new clothes & stuff, new camera & gym clothes..gotta look good when i go to the gym- you know..i like to feel good when im wearing good clothes haha, even if its only the gym lol.

love you my little pretty skinnies, leave me comments i love you all!!
xx

24 Hour Fast

Only a small fast, but im in need of it..went abit ovvvvvvvverboard with the calorie intake today and last night D; nooo. hopefully i can sleep off the calories, lol..doubt it. I ate mood cals last night..i get this thing where i get sad cos my boyfriend wont dance with me at partys or events, and i always end up in tears, i have no idea why..its just when i see other couples dancing and having fun, i want that for us too. But i have grown used to it, but still makes me abit teary-eyed after the event. So i sat at the table nibbling on chips, almonds, and had 2 icecreams! damm, fat pig i am. yesterday i could fit nicely into my skinny shorts but not this morning. nope. so this is why i need a fast. im pretty sure i can get through it easily. See what happens when i go away from my blog or thinspo too long, i get fat and eat!!!! Its like im playing a game of cat and mouse, i dont eat then i binge then i fast and then i eat..and binge again wtf. I look at other ana blogs and everyone does so well with there intake i just need more self control i thought i had abit, but it flys out the window some days. I guess i compare myself to other people alot, its something ive always done and im very competitive. I eat on average 600 cals a day..and some people only have 45 cals. i wish i had that intake..need more low cal ideas..think ill go surfing the web for some more ;) if you guys have any ideas love to hear them! I was going so well, but need to pick myself back together and get back to less cals a day! my goal this week is to only eat 400 or less cals a day everyday this week! wish me luck my pretties :):):)

Oh btw, do you know really fucking hurts, when your alseep and you get your belly ring caught in your sheets and you roll around in bed..and wake up to find your belly is bleeding cos i ripped the bottom of peircing hole has been split..if that makes sense..oh well it fucking hurts like a mofo! Oh also i thought id put a pic of my tattoo up, i have 2 tats and planning on getting another when i loose more weight. This tat is on the right side of my shoulder and if you look close it has a keyhole inside..hopefully my boyfriend gets a key tattooed so we match ;D

time to start my fast as of.....NOW!

ily skinny chickies! x

Surviving The Weekend ;o

A good way to start the day, with a lil bit of thinspo ;D Awwwft :( my computer has this thing where this warning pops up and its hard for me to open the internet..its being gay! Yesterday was a somewhat satisfactory effort on my behalf. I didnt eat as much i usually did, except the major let down in my day was ate 9pm i decided to stay back and play a game of pool/snooker with a few work mates and a couple of locals...should have just gone home and starved the rest of the night until i slept, but no couldnt help my little fingers reaching into a small packet of peanuts...just as i ate a couple of peanuts a girl charlene who used to work with me was really drunk and yelled across the bar "kristin are you pregnant" i had the biggest suprised ( =O ) and most disgusted look ive had on my face, i was really offended, i turned around and said " no, do i look it" and shes like "nah someone just told me you were" and i was like get fucked you fat bitch ( thats what i said under my breath lol) . she was probly trying to have a dig becuase her boyfriend was chatting to me all night, and she looked like a feral pig that just came of a farm..she is like a man, i decided not to fire up, becuase im so used to being picked on i take on anyone and abuse the shit out of them...but decided against it thinking i might get bashed by her.. so i decided to walk outside and have a icey water and another bush pig starts on me..shes like "is that a long singlet or a dress, cos i cant tell" and im like "its a dress" shes like it looks to small to be a dress it must be a shirt..im like watever just cos you have to hide your muffin top with a baggy shirt. fuck i hate girls in this town, all stupid fat moles who think they own the joint. Lucky carlos came, he is like my bodygaurd slash pretend older brother..no one picks a fight with him cos his a boxer and would crack them in the face. i wish i had the strength to do it, but since im feeling so weak i dont think i should be picking fights with fat bush turkeys. lol. the sooner i get out of this town the better, i am surrounded by a sea of fat people. where all the skinny people at,lol?!?

im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.

im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat.im still fat. :(

Anyway, gotta survive this weekend! (from food) i have 2 partys in the same night, but i have to work, so hopefully by the time i get there the food will be gone and everyone will be so drunk they wont ask me to have a drink. My best friend porscha dosnt drink and im so glad, she is on a fitness hype like me, but she dosnt know that im devolping an ED, or i could already have one. I dread the day when she finds out cos she is gonna slap me out of this world..and its gonna leave a mark! lol. but i can hide it abit longer im hoping. So these partys are both dress ups, and the first one im going to is a 70's theme, where i have a long blonde wig and a yellow sequin dress, i will have to stop eating at 5pm if i want to have a flatter stomach, cos the dress is very figure hugging =S but hopefully im gonna dance some calories of there..hehe. and the second is a 21st, which is a alice in wonderland theme, im going as the queen of hearts :P im hella excited. If i was like lindsay lohan i would have a small body and a big head, which would match my character fine lolol.

ill blog in my intake tommorw, ill see what the day holds for me, i have a rough idea of what im going to eat...not much!!

stay thin & beautiful my pretties!!

x

Boss Read My Blog?? Ooops!!

Aghhhhhhhh! So i have noticed that every night at 7:30pm i get this thing where im this savage beast who is hungry and i want to eat so bad..but i was good i just had a tea, cos warm water supresses the appetite..and i seemed to be okay until 8:30pm...i finish work at 9pm so working with food through these times makes it so much harder for me, but easier to just walk into the fridge and get a snack. Im proud of myself i didnt go into the evil home of food. There is the peice of rocky road just staring at me all day, i picked it up, put it back..picked it up again..and thought nope..im not eating that. I swear the other guy at work just cut it and put it there to torture me, cos he knows its my weakness!

Wait, i have to throw this in; i had the best fuck last night! wooo0ooo0ooo! I think i am a sex addict..and thats probly not a lie, everyone at work sais my mind is always on the pepperoni. But if it helps burns the calories, its a double bounus!! ++

Alright so ive had some progress, its been fast and i need to keep working at it or ill stack it back on but ive managed to loose 2.6kgs this week,yay for me! But being me, that is never good enough so ill thrash myself at the gym with porscha...im really loving the x-trainer and leg press..i dont wanna end up like a sicko with muscly legs though, nice thin toned ones is what i prefer!

Alright since im on my blogger like everyday im totally obsessed. i just had to check it at work, and left it up on the screen, my boss came out of the office and looked at me funny...i talk about him on here all the time so hopefully he didnt read it cos i been calling him fat lol. oh well ooops! he shouldnt of read it! his still fat btw. just lettin you all know hahah.

I know its only thursday, but in my town the local "skank patrol" roam the streets cos its late night shopping and thirsty thursday...which means everyone is out at night partying/shopping. In my town the partying starts on a thursday and ends on sunday night,also there is lots of people with lots of money and they have nothing to spend it on except for alchol,sex or clothes. My dad dropped in a suprise visit yesterday and is only here for 1 day and leaves the next morning, i am lucky to see my dad maybe 2-3 times a year...i hardly ever see him, to see him means alot to me, but thank god he is a health freak he will understand if i dont eat much at dinner, it makes it so much easier for me to have dinner with...plus i wont have to put up with those stupid hunger pains! And since its been raining the last few days, its making me more hungrier and sleepier...fuck you global warming, your fucking up ana!

Intake plan for today:

b: muesli w. skim milk

l: 2 x wheat crips w. tuna & tomato,lettuce

s: frozen yoghurt with 2 chopped strawberries ( i have this like everyday becuase it curves the sugar cravings!) 1 x wheatbix w. skim milk

d: -

Anyway i have to hit the gym, talk to you soon my little pretties!! love you all!

Ill dedicate a post just to thinspo soon!!

x

Still fat today, thinner tommorow im hoping ;)

Okay wow, look how healthy, happy and skinny that girl is at the top, i want to be like that!! & a howdy doo to my new followers :D It gives me so much inspiration & motivation when i get new followers! ;D If theres something i else i love just as much as loosing weight, its my products for my face & fashion! Since porshca called up and said she got called into work, i canned working out *sigh* even though i know i shouldnt have, cos i really need to work off those thunder thighs and handles bars on my hips, i decided to go buy some products for my face..the best thing that has worked for me so far is this product called "clean start" by dermologica, i tried a sample the other day which i got from girlfriend magazine(lol shame)and it is like sex on my face..haha its that good!! If it dosnt work for ya, that sucks, but its just cleared my face up and made it look clean and fresh!

The gym i go to sell this, so i technically did go to the gym but not to work off my fat, so im gonna have to work extra hard tommorow!..im so fat! ughh! fatty fatty fatty. I take pride in how i look (unfortunatly my body isnt up with the times) and found that if i fuss around with beauty products i forget about eating...I still think that even though im not eating as much as i was, i should take care of myself in other ways, if you look healthy than no one can say you look dull and need to eat..its just alot easier to hide from people if your looking healthy on the outside...its all about tricking people. its like a game to me. i have to win, and what i will win at the end is thiness and beauty, then ill be just the way i want to be.

Heres a few things i do to stop eating & to look after myself:

-give my self a mani/pedi

-have extra long shower and scrub myself pretty

- wax my legs, moisturise

- take womens multi-vitamins, fish oil tablets

-pluck my eyebrows

-clean; fold all my clothes,change sheets every week,washing,vacuum

- i carry a photo of the body i want in my wallet when i want to buy food from the shops so it stops me from buying a bad choice

- stare at my body in the mirror when i think about binging

- brushing my teeth constantly makes food taste gross when i go to eat it whos laughing now, stupid calories!)

Gross!

- watch jerry springer, seeing all those fat feral people makes me feel good about myself and makes me not eat food! LOL

If you got any tips comment me & tell me yours ;) it all helps us out!!
Okay love you long timeeeeeee my skinny minis!
x

Scales,i hate the figure you show

Okay, so i managed to get out of hosting a bbq last night.. but then i get invited to one...and the voice in my head sais "No0oooooo00oo0o!" I mean im not really an anti social person, i love going to see people..but bbqs...seriosuly watching them cook the meat with all the fat dripping off and everything is oil covered or marinated. yuck! I only went becuase it was my friends krystals 24th bday..but there was food everywhere and people were stuffing there mouths with bread rolls with fatty sausages and sqeezing an excessive amount of tomato sauce on top..i just couldnt bare it. I was going to be sick with the sight alone. I stayed strong..well atleast until she bought some cheese and crackers out, i thought i better not look to sqaure, and eat a couple, i didnt binge though i managed to control myself.. but this is exactly why i hate these kind of things, cos i know i will give in, even though i had already consummed by daily calories. grrrrrrrrrrrrr. annoyed at myself...and i never eat past 7pm so the food probly hasnt even digested, hence why i have a bloated stomach today :( damm! double damm! While i was in krystals bathroom i couldnt help but notice the scales, just sitting on the floor looking at me. wtf..i was talking to myself asking myself should i see..or not..? fuck it, ill look anyway..wasnt happy with the numbers..but i usually weigh myself in the morning, so hopefully it will be nicer to me today ;)

On new years i broke 6 ribs, and with all the pain it caused me, it actually gave me an exuse not to eat..although i wish i was abit more stricter on myself then...it could of helped me alot now ..but dont go out and break your ribs, it fucking hurts like a mofo! you cant sneeze,cough,laugh..and hic-cups are hell itself! it fucked me for 6-8 weeks..and i kept re-breaking them..by accident..i hit a metal tray into my ribs at work, just when they were starting to heal..but i must say i enjoyed the time off, i would go out to the local beer garden and sit with my friends in the sun......You may be wondering how i broke my ribs? ..well its called being drunk, sitting on a water bed next to a pool with about 20 people crammed on..and some idiot jumps out of the pool and onto the bed, and i was on the edge and i went flying and landed on a brick that was in the shape of a triangle standing up and CRACK!..that fucken tickled abit, shit :(

..another reason why i dont like to drink is becuase even though it hurt, i was so overly drunk i didnt notice i actually broke them until the next day. thank god i dont drink anymore, i do not miss the injuries.

Anyways.....time to plan meals for the day:

b: 1 wholemeal slice of bread w. 1 poached egg

l: 2 vita wheat crackers w. spinach,low fat cheese,tomato,thin slice of ham

s: frozen yoghurt,low cal jelly

d: -

Much needed thinspo:

Leave me comments i always reply cos i love you my little skinnies!!

stay thin & strong!
xx

iPod Tunes For Ana

There you go some thinspo pics. Im in need today, as im having cravings! I hate food, it tricks you into eating it, and makes you think that your hungry.

Okay so went to the gym and i ate yoghurt before i went thinking if i eat i will just loose the calories..but actually the whole time i felt sick like i was going to purge and i got a stitch in my stomach and i had to stop. Oh well, it looks like im in for a lot of nanny naps to curve the cravings for food.

Here's some songs to put on your ipod, they remind me about ana, and eating. even though the words to the songs are about something else, i think that they are about eating, here they are:

Away- breaking benjamin

What lies beneath - breaking benjamin

I dont wanna be - gavin degraw

Halfway gone - lifehouse

I made it - kevin rudolf

Calling all skeletons - the alkaline trio

Broken Bones - birds of tokyo

Silhouettics - birds of tokyo

Fuck it - seether

Open fire (anas song) - silverchair

Heres some good music just to dance to while your at home, anything that burns calories is good,right??

Break your heart- Taio cruz

Burn it to the ground - nickelback

Give it all you got - Lil jon ft kree

Give it up to me - shakira ft lil wayne

Hatin on the club - rihanna

Just say so - brian mcfadden

Lets get crazy ( party rock mix)- cassie ft akon

Naturally- selena gomez *i love this song!! gets me movin!

Memories - david guetta ft kid cudi

World goes on - david guetta ft bruno mars ** i lovvvvvvvvve this song so much!!

Snakeskin- gyroscope

If you download these let me know if you liked them and ill put up some more, cos i have so much music..i like to curl in bed listening to my ipod when im feeling hungry.

Intake:

b: bacon & egg mcmuffin - 300 cals

l: yoghurt -92 cals

s: wildberry jols 5 cals

d: -

d: big mob of water ;)

Total: 397cals ( and im feeling the pressure of wanting to eat, but im gonna keep thin and not eat anymore im more than happy than that for an intake today!