a mini mia experiance ;)

Alright so im totally sneaking onto the work computer to write this blog entry hehe..!! naughty me! Anyway yesterday i had an encounter with abit of mia,woot. my boss just passed me a peice of cake and i was dumb & weak enough to take it and eat it, but i had a little and then went into the toilet and threw it up, i was kinda happy with myself..is that strange??? I then wrinsed my mouth with water cos i had the acdic taste in my mouth yuck! ewwwwwwwwww

So..for the rest of the day i put a elastic band around my wrist and snapped it incase i felt like binging out and i....WAIT. . . . just got interupted by the fat boy at our work who is eating cake..FFS (for fuck sake) i need privacy here. well his gone cos i told him i need privacy to write something important...well where was i..oh yes, the lacky band helped me out heaps..and it kinda worked but i kinda got over it after a few hours and decided to log onto my blogger account and print out some thinspo and carry it in my pocket..that pretty much worked ;D yays.

Well last night got an un expecting suprise visit from this girl kelly, i mentioned her before in my blog i didnt really like her, but i came home and my boyfriend had invited her and her boyfriend tristan over to have a few drinks cos he saw them in the supermarket..so when i got home looking like a peice of shit after a hard days work smeling like cooking oil, she is sitting on my lounge all dolled up..and i was in a little bit of shock cos the first thing i though was 1. what the fuck is she doing here and 2. i look like shit, holy shit hurry into the bedroom and change clothes!!
lucky its my house so i could check out what she was wearing and make myself look better..im abit of a weirdo i know..its just the way i think..im a very jelous kind of girl..but after i was chtting to her for like 5 hours i realised i was just being a bitch to her before for no reason, its all in my head.. and i actually really enjoyed her company..her dad died and i didnt say i felt sorry for her cos theres nothing i could do, but i said it must be extremmely hard for her loosing some one who was so close for so many years...i actually didnt want her to leave by the end i wanted her to stay over...

so yesterday i have learnt, not to be such a biaaaatch to everyone for no reason, i just am always paranoid that everyone is out to hurt me or soemthing..but i have been burnt alot from girls so thats probly why..well its like a weight has lifted off my chest for not being so negative..i will still be jelous probly but i wont take it out on them i dont think...they dont really deserve my evil wrath of bitchiness i spose.

well intake is:
b: muesli w skim milk & strawberries
s: yoghurt & bran
l: mixed salad: chicken,lettuce,cheese,egg,tomato,cucumber & balsmaic dressing
d: - nothing (like always)
well keep thin & beautiful i will post some more pictures as i dont have any cos im on my work computer...so it must be a boring post today listening to all my blabbering..hehee.
well gtg ciao ciao
xx

Fighting Off Cakes,Cookies & Chocolate!!!?!?! =D

Felt pretty damm good when i woke up this morning..didnt eat anything after 6pm last night and am feeling the reward this morning ;) I had a 21st on last night but didnt end up going becuase it was a wednesday night and i didnt wanna binge after a hard days effort of resisting eating wedges & sour cream. Mmmmmm okay i work as a chef, if you didnt know that from my previous posts & such well now you know..i work with a chef who is 5 star trained in desserts, and omfg i love his food. his the bomb...but i hate it when he makes nice cakes!!! & his always saying how fat my ass is ;( damm. oh well elast he reminds me he could just not say anything then watch me explode at the sides. There is this lady at work and shes abit of a cougar, but not a very good looking one,lol, she preys on younger men and she wears these tight pants and you can see her g-string line..makes me sick. she has a huge stomach aswell..plus her hair cut dosnt help..it looks like a mushroom on her head lol lol!! im so mean but i love it ;p

Alright skinnies i need to find a subsitute for chocolate/cakes..i tried drinking hot milo..but milo is full of sugar. i have found these ice creams that are probly pretty fattening but have 300 cals..so if i eat that that is like one whole meal for the day for me and a snack lol..i try to eat frozen rasberries but i just want the taste of chocolate ;( help!

Do you know what is really weird, i can eat the same thing for months on end..i counted for 4 months straight i ate baked beans on 2 salada crackers with cream cheese for lunch every day and i friggen loved it so much i couldnt stop eating it, its not very fattening, and you can get low fat cream cheese..it sounds like a strange thing to eat..i kind of accidently just made it up one day and decided it tasted good and just kept eating it!!..but i did loose alot of weight, i mean that was my whole meal for the day plus a milo..not a very nutritional diet for anyone but i enjoyed eating it hhaha, plus it was summer so i was sweating alot and always walking around,shopping, lots of sexy time (LOL) and forgetting to eat..which is why i probly lost so much weight in the first place. I probly eat better now than i have ever did before becuase i care more about nutrients & vitamins.. i try to look after myself. sometimes. lol

So today gonna have a me day, going to pluck my eyebrows (cos waxing increases wrinkles on your face) shave my legs, paint my toe nails & fingers, get a hair chop, facial treatment & might go down to the local gym and get a spa massage, im in need of relaxation ;) then off to work to hang with my girls porscha & alexia..lucky we all work together! :D

Alrighty enough with my chattering, intake for today is:

b: 1 slice of wholemeal toast w. 1 scrambeled egg with chopped tomato,chives,low fat cheese,salt & pepper

l: garden salad w spinach,tomato,cucumber, baked chicken with tuscan spice & salt & pepper, laughing cow cheese

s: 1 weetbix or frozen yoghurt

d: - nothing again :D

Have a nice day my pretties ;)
xo