Confessions & Photos of my somewat progress =O ;)lol

Here is what i looked like last month..i have a tattoo on my back saying lil chef..i also look really white, i think its the camera qaulity & i took that early in the day in my bathroom..look at that huge fat ass..grrrrrr.i hate it!

this is what im like at the moment, i stripped off in the toilet at work and took the photo,lol..thats why all my chef clothes are on the floor in the background lol..im still fat though :(

Okay this was yesterday, me holding a doughnut what the fuck am i doing!! - i had it for lunch...im lost some willpower with that stupid gay chocolate coated fucking peaice of dough shaped like a circle! :)(:(:( ;( ;'*(

that next to me is carlos, his my boxing friend we gym it together,work together,drink together we are like 2 peas in a pod..he looks pretty knarly but his the nicest & funniest bloke ever!! and to ruin the photo i am wearing tight shorts that i should not be wearing for my figure..gross. im so conscious about my legs, but yesterday i thought fuck it ill wear this and ummm yeah..lets not do that again..not until im skinnier anyway.

So000000oooooooo0ooooo........

im going to the gym this morning with carlos, he also motivates me to go..which is a good thing or id lay in bed and just not eat. gonna do abit of shopping aswell, need new bras and shit like that.

*~You might wanna grab some sugar free gum while reading this, it could take a while to read..so prepare yourself~*

So, when my friend kelly was over the other night (thats right i called her a friend,lol) she confessed that she still steals things from shops, i dont really wanna go in shops with her incase they think i do it too..but when i got kicked out of home i did some things i was not proud of but wouldnt change how i did everything either.. so anyway i moved to a small town that was half an hour from the main city where i went to school, i had no money and i moved in with a kiwi family who used to give me like $200 bucks for a fortnight plus they put me on this thing called centrelink where they pay you money every week cos i was living out of home and a school student.. so anyway when i was at school i was hanging with a new crowd from this small town kambalda... they happen to still be really good friends with me (this is when i met kelly) ..so this is how it played out..there were 5 of us girls including my boyfriends ex gf kaylee,kelly,aroha,roxy & me.. we used to catch the bus into school go to one class we liked..mainly art for me and then wag school and go shopping up town with our 5 finger discount..of course we had no money we used to steal everything..we used to go into shops try on 4 items of clothing and come out of the changeroom with 2..it was such an adrenilline rush and we all used to love doing it, we had the best clothes..friday was our day for raping the shops..cos we used to party on friday nights and go get smashed at house partys...this is how i met my boyfriend at the first party i went to..hehee...we started to get cocky like we would steal shit infront of cameras and walk into shops take something and run out..when we all met up and catched the bus back home we all went to one of our houses and would take everything out of our school bag to see what we had...if you can imagine 5 16 yr old girls laughing and rolling in expensive dresses and jewellery it was soooo fun. but id never do it again, cos i earn heaps of money now. i guess when your young and dumb, you dont think of the consequences. But it only got better, i didnt know that the centrelink had been paying me for months without me realising it, i checked my bank account and i had $5000.00 i was like OMGGGG i almost screamed at the atm..and what did i do?? i blew it. on clothes and anything i wanted, i had never had that much money in my life before..well i was 16, and what else was i gonna do with it, looking back i coulda saved it, but me and my friends just had a ball..knowing you could buy almost anything you wanted was an awesome feeling. Now, i get paid $2000 a week so its not that bigger deal for me..but back then holy fuck..it was some of the best times i had ever had in my life..and it was great..did some things i wasnt proud of..but i have stopped doing that kind of shit..i was smoking aswell cos other girls where smoking...and its not like i was hanging with a feral bunch of yard moles, these girls are like really vain and always look the best even if it was just school..and to know such a secret about them, it makes me think maybe other girls like us have done it too. I always used to wonder how all the popular girls have the best of everything and you just wanna be like them cos they have everything..and there the same age..like they must have rich parents or something??? Now me and my boyfriend own 3 houses and a business and im only 20 and he is 25..i have no reason to do stuff like that anymore..oh well..when ever we see each other we reminise about the past and it was just hilarious and fun..it was like we were invincible..people were jelous of us cos we had great stuff, we always looked good cos we had nice clothes and stuff and whatever we did we had the most fun..so yeah i miss those days mainly cos i always had a ring of friends around me..but now i just keep a couple of close ones that i can trust. So when Kelly the other night tells me she still steals, i told her she should probly stop becuase where not 16 anymore, were 20 and if she gets caught it will stuff her chance of getting a job..or end up in jail with charges against her or watevs.

fuckkk, what a longggggggggggggggggggg post, feel sorry for who ever has to read it lols. i should cut down my blog posts they so long lol.

well intake outline for today:

b: toast with vegemite and glass of skim milk

l: spinach,tomato,ham,cheese,advocado on a vita heat cracker

s: frozen yohgurt with strawberries

d: something light, since im working out today ;)

stay thin & beautiful my lovlies ♥

xx

a mini mia experiance ;)

Alright so im totally sneaking onto the work computer to write this blog entry hehe..!! naughty me! Anyway yesterday i had an encounter with abit of mia,woot. my boss just passed me a peice of cake and i was dumb & weak enough to take it and eat it, but i had a little and then went into the toilet and threw it up, i was kinda happy with myself..is that strange??? I then wrinsed my mouth with water cos i had the acdic taste in my mouth yuck! ewwwwwwwwww

So..for the rest of the day i put a elastic band around my wrist and snapped it incase i felt like binging out and i....WAIT. . . . just got interupted by the fat boy at our work who is eating cake..FFS (for fuck sake) i need privacy here. well his gone cos i told him i need privacy to write something important...well where was i..oh yes, the lacky band helped me out heaps..and it kinda worked but i kinda got over it after a few hours and decided to log onto my blogger account and print out some thinspo and carry it in my pocket..that pretty much worked ;D yays.

Well last night got an un expecting suprise visit from this girl kelly, i mentioned her before in my blog i didnt really like her, but i came home and my boyfriend had invited her and her boyfriend tristan over to have a few drinks cos he saw them in the supermarket..so when i got home looking like a peice of shit after a hard days work smeling like cooking oil, she is sitting on my lounge all dolled up..and i was in a little bit of shock cos the first thing i though was 1. what the fuck is she doing here and 2. i look like shit, holy shit hurry into the bedroom and change clothes!!
lucky its my house so i could check out what she was wearing and make myself look better..im abit of a weirdo i know..its just the way i think..im a very jelous kind of girl..but after i was chtting to her for like 5 hours i realised i was just being a bitch to her before for no reason, its all in my head.. and i actually really enjoyed her company..her dad died and i didnt say i felt sorry for her cos theres nothing i could do, but i said it must be extremmely hard for her loosing some one who was so close for so many years...i actually didnt want her to leave by the end i wanted her to stay over...

so yesterday i have learnt, not to be such a biaaaatch to everyone for no reason, i just am always paranoid that everyone is out to hurt me or soemthing..but i have been burnt alot from girls so thats probly why..well its like a weight has lifted off my chest for not being so negative..i will still be jelous probly but i wont take it out on them i dont think...they dont really deserve my evil wrath of bitchiness i spose.

well intake is:
b: muesli w skim milk & strawberries
s: yoghurt & bran
l: mixed salad: chicken,lettuce,cheese,egg,tomato,cucumber & balsmaic dressing
d: - nothing (like always)
well keep thin & beautiful i will post some more pictures as i dont have any cos im on my work computer...so it must be a boring post today listening to all my blabbering..hehee.
well gtg ciao ciao
xx

pictures,louder than words.

I just felt like posting lots of pictures today, i need to look at some thinspo pics. i think im just going to go eat 400 cals. sitting in the car this morning, see this chick who used to really fat, looking like a twig..and i got depressed..i had to backwards glance to make sure it was her..i was so shocked. she looked really good, and her clothes look so much btter on her..she has no muffin top or an apple in her pants. grrrrrrr. seeing shit like that makes me hell jelous & fuckin annoyed; becuase im not like that yet. but at the same time motivates me more to wanna loose weight. i realised that i dont have a full length mirror in the house..ive always been okay with the top of my body, but maybe i was an-aware that i delibratly havnt bought one for that reason, i probly cant stand looking at my fat legs,love handles and butt. i think im gonna buy one...one of my friends sais she looks at her self in her full length mirror for 4 hours a day...ive been in her house and she has the mirror in her kitchen & one down her hallway..i spose thats a good idea, you look at yourself eat and get repulsed..and you cant run away cos your always looking at yourself. She has body dis-morphic disorder, or i thinkk thats what its called, what she was describing kinda sounds alot like the things i do & think but maybe im just in denial or and just really screwed up and confused..who fuckin knows?!

I bought a measuring tape and a pedometer..to take my measurements to see if anything is actually happening..i know i need to go to the gym about 5 times a week..im only going like 2 a the moment, poor effort i know. ;(

but ive been to a shrink a few years ago and there more fucked up than me...they twist shit around and make you sound like a weirdo, when all you do is think differently to them and what they consider "normal"..not really intrested in what they have to say anyway id rather spend money on nice clothes or a personal trainer lol.

wel im off to get ready to work..uggghhh i dont wanna go i just wanna stay inside all day and read more blogs..im almost tempted to pull a sickie haha.

stay thin pretties

x

EARTHHHHQAUKEEEE! eeek.

Sheee$h. i want that chicks hair colour,eyebrows & body ;) one day..or maybe im wishin lol.

Yeppp couple of days ago a 5.2 earthqauke that hit here in our town of kalgoorlie. i was just sittin in bed doin my usual (reading blogs) and the whole house was SshAakinggggg!!!!..i live in a mining town so i thought it was just a minesite blast..but uhh noo. this is my 3rd earthqauke experiance..i live almost in the middle of the dessert where everyone drives around in brand spankin new cars and live in fancy houses..its like a little rich town with people who spend money like it dosnt matter... money burns holes through peoples hands here. Lots of houses/ hotels have cracks and bricks that have fallen off them..its pretty hardcore ill have to post some pics::

I took these piccys today..
You cant really see the damage in these photos, but you can when your lookin at it. ;)

Aiiight so its me & my boyfriends 4yr anniversary today!! yays!! I woke up and made scrambleed eggs for us both,i put bacon & italian sausage,chives,onion & tomato in the eggs with skim milk..i suppose it wasnt that bad, i had a little portion though with one sice of wholmeal bread and a small glass of orange juice.

Soo just went and had lunch at my old work and had a nice day lazy in the sun drinking my skim milk iced coffee & workin on my tan lol.. i have just had the best day today & i got a feeling its only gonna get better. im sooo in a love mood♥ right now. i just love everything. im giving myself a little breathing space from my ED and enjoying my day..but tommorow i will be extreme on myself so im just gonna enjoy this while i can..My boy is takin me out to this 5 star restaurant tonight..i think i will just have soup, probly the saest option or salad.

alright..goin to the cinema tonight, dunno what we are watching, i just kinda wanna lay at home on the couch and watch it on our tv..our tv is like 60" anyway so its pretty big... and i wanna watch avatar...but sometimes i get in these funny little kid moods where i wanna watch aladdin or the lion king :P heheee.

Last night to hold of my cravings for evil food, i cleaned the whole house, sorted out all my clothes and gave like 6 big bags of my clothes to this girl angela who is 13 and im sure shes gonna love it cos all my clothes are pretty exxy..and shes always wanted my louis vuitton bikinis so i gave them away to her, along with my old hadbags & jeans...oh well i uess i better buy some more clothes now haha!!! but i need to save..damm. oh well when i go to china hopefully i can buy heaps of rip off deisnger clothes lol

So intake:

b: scrambeled eggs ( ingrediants up there^^)

s: strawberry yoghurt - 90 cals

l: light iced coffee with skim milk and ceasar salad with no dressing

d: - probly soup,yepp. or nothing if i can

Well im off to sit on the couch under the air con with my blanket, cuddled up to my boy..and enjoy the rest of the day. have fun my pretties
ciao ciao my skinnies!!

xo

Vitamin Lollies-lol.

"you could be empty, and i can be right here empty with you"

I came across this picture on my travels, i listened to my chem & the used for hours at a time in my room, curled up in my bed with my blanket over my stereo so mum couldnt hear..i still love them both..although i like mcr's older music rather than their new stuff. Oh and btw, i dunno how correct this info is but aparently you can keep eating vitamin C tablets cos your body expells it and it only uses what it can at a time, so you pee it out..so i have been chewing on vitamin tablets (orange flavour) all day, it seems to have curved my sugar craving and lollie thing i have every few hours, tastes like sugar.. i should google it and find out if it has any cals?!??! Or if it is bad to eat to much. heh heh, it was a tip i got from an ana friend that i work with ;D

xx

Desperate for thinspo..!!

i dont wanna end up like this^

hmmm, not so sexy...!?!? :/

Kayyyy i wrote a hella awesome post and then my laptop battery died! && it didnt auto save nooooooooo0o0o0o00o dammiit! Anyway, went out clubbin last night and had a blast! I didnt have one drink at all i just drank water all night, people though ti was drinking vodka or something though lol. It was a pretty good night, but me and my twisted little girl mind always gets in the way..i saw lots of thin skinny girls last night, and i get angry cos i want to be like that..whats worse is i see all the girls from school aswell, i cant stand most of them. bitchfaces... ;(;( But soon got over it when i was carvin' up the dancefloor like a freak! ; But when i got home, took off my makeup and washed my face and let my hair down, i looked up into the mirror and i started having little tears come out.. i just was staring at myself...(*reminded me of a scene from the movie thirteen, gotta watch that btw* top movie) ..and it wasnt becuase i was sad, i just wish that i didnt have to battle my weight everyday, i hate it..i wish i could just make it dis-appear...i know that i didnt get fat overnight, and i know im not going to get thin overnight either..somedays its just so hard..i try to keep positive that i will loose the weight..but i have fat days, where i feel like it dosnt matter what i eat becuase i will always be fat no matter what..and other days i am so motivated to be skinny. i really need to straighten myself out! I almost feel like im not worthy of being with my boyfriend, he really deserves a skinny girlfriend who is happy with herself..and i put him through so much shit..i guess i never really felt good enough for anyone anyway.. i try not to push him away when i feel the way i do..and none of it is even his fault its just me being insecure.

Well tommorow night is me and my boyfriends 4 year anniversary!! He said his gonna take me out for dinner, i suppose ill eat, but low fat of course! whooo, i cant belive it has been 4 years already. wow. ill put a picture of my amazing boyfriend up on here (he'd probly kill me if he knew i did this,lol) i love him bulk ♥♥♥!!!

what a spunk!! ^^

Anyways, im probly gonna be a big hermit and live on blogger this week, im trying to stay at home so i dont spend money or go out and have lunch dates with friends, and eat un-neccasary calories. I weighted myself, still no change but that is a good thing i suppose from all the shit i have been eating in the last couple of days. i ate a whole block of chocolate..to myself :S geeez, that is not going to help my wobbly bum and legs :S:S

Heres some thoughts i came across in my mind this morning:

~ nice clothes only look good on skinny people

~ girls will hate each other for no reason at all

~ my life would be so much easier if i was thin

~ i made myself fat from lifting my hand to my mouth

~ i need to be on my blog to help myself with my eating

~ need to re-asses my controlled eating plan

~ sex during day light makes me nervous & worried about how my body looks to him

Anyways im off to draw myself up a new eating plan, ill post it up on here when im finished with it. Anyways everyone tell me how your all coping with your ED or just say anything really, id love to hear from you all my pretties♥

kristin

xx

Mirror,Mirror...wtf?!!?

Errrr lets say i wasnt happy with with i saw in the mirror when i woke up this morning..(thats nothing usual)...but i had the biggest fucking bags under my eyes ever and i look like a drug fucked weirdo..already!?!? its making me think i shouldnt take these pills ive never had bags that bad before. && i had the most wacked out dream....ill tell you cos i thought it was funny when i woke up: pretty much grew a seaworld from thr inside of a fridge kinda like sea monkeys, i made a man out of seaweed, watered him everyday and made friends for him in the fridge and shit..but they started to get really big and overflow the fridge...bla bla bla. fuck it was strange haha. your probly thinking umm hmm lay off the drugs lmao!!

So i think im gonna hold off on them, i was loosing weight before without the pills and alexia said i looked really down yesterday..maybe im just freaked cos there pills i dunno..well that didnt last very fuckin long did it???? im such a pansy ass. Oh well, sorrry guys i thought i could last a bit longer than like 2 days on them. I have never felt so tired when i wake up, and im used to only intaking 400-600 cals i feel pretty damm good...but these pills knocked me about..i feel like im falling asleep typing this lol...............................f.............hyj........................................g......s...........................gty.ret......3yj.

..............................jjokes. im awake!

Well on the brighter side, im going to buy a new car!!!!!! yay! this is the one im getting, same colour and all with number plates saying "steamin" its a suzuki swift. :D:D

Well last week i went around work making plans to go out this weekend...i invited a few guys who stay at our camp. I work at a camp with miners and there is 100 men who stay there, i have known the all for a year so they are like friends to me. Theres a couple called tom & will and they are hilarious i love them cos they are just sooo funny! So invited them out along with alexia,porscha,the new chick hazel, my friend roxy and nicole etc etc. i will have to post some photos...but im not even going to be drinking so atleast ill look sober..but i have a habbit of looking the most drunk when ive had the least to drink lmao!! Im going out shopping tommorow to pick out an outift..and the only shop we have in our town is like supre so ill probly be getting this dress:

I'll be sure to put up some photos from the weekend..if i buy a new camera cos mine broke in my bag the other day..*sigh* ;( dang it.

Well of to the gym with porscha this morning and i really dont think i can handle it. i feel pretty fucked, ill probly have a heart attack. like literally.

well intake; probly going to have to up it a little bit since im feeling so down from these pills.

b: muesli w skim milk. pce of toast with vegemite.

s: frozen yoghurt & fruit salad with watermelon,strawberries,passionfruit,pineapple,apple,rasberries.

l: wholewheat crackers with laughing cow cheese,spinach,chicken,tomato,cucumber

d: - nothinn!

Talk to you soon my little lovlies!! ♥

xx

I almost forgot,..

Here's a couple of songs to lisen to..this is my kind of music choice..you dont have to like it..but i do ;D

empty with you- the used
alejandro - lady gaga
flash back- calvin harris
nothin on you- b.o.b feat bruno mars
opportunity- pete murray
your love is my drug - ke$ha

tell me if you like any of them, if you download them???
xx

Pill Poppin' Junkie!!

Holleey shit, i have 51 followers! wooo ;) like thats probly nothing to the people who have like 800 or watever but that number is presh to me ♥ thanks for following me guys!!!!

Alright so im eating my brekky (muesli & skim milk), and ive just popped 3 pills before i ate..yesterday i decided to go to the chemist and find some pills/shakes to help me loose abit more weight..luckily i had a chick who was heaps into loosing weight & diets and she was telling me all the pro's and cons of different pills and shit..shes like the same age and has tried it all...so i took her advice on these all natural pills. I wanted a more natural supplement cos i dont want to harm my body as much; eg: fucking up my liver,heart attacks and all that jazz. So im trying out these pills lipoburn hardcore. There aussie made and are all natural ingrediants with a hit of caffeine..they cost me $60 bucks and i take 6 tablets a day..none before bed or you go friggen loo0o0oopy and cant sleep.

So this is my 2nd day on them, and the only thing ive noticed is that ive had a little bit of a headache, but i never drink coke or coffee so ive never had a high intake of caffeiene before. I feel a little jittery and my stomach rumbles, i really hope this dosnt fuck me up!! lol..but im gonna give it a go for 2 weeks. I read on the label that increases your body temperature.. and omfg i was sweating like an arab in customs yesterday!! i felt that fucken hot! I do wear like 3 shirts under my chef jacket but ive always done that, but shit. i felt warm alright!!! These pills also help supress your appetite. yay!

Aaaaanyway i gave a lady at our work a couple of my pills cos she was lagging energy & wanted to loose weight and we were hell zippy..& we were in the coolroom eating chocolate cake, giggling like little kids in a candy shop, it was fucken weird but funny! and then crashed a few hours later., we were fucked!!!! I think i needed that cake though, i managed to burn it off i think by all the extra movement i was doing..like skipping around in the kitchen... if you were to walk into our kitchen last night you would have seen my boss who looks like carl williams, a skipping fuckin fruitcake and a out of control giggling kiwi woman. haha what a sight!!

pills,pills pills pills pills. food. pills pills pills. pills.pills pills pills pills. zing zing. pills pills pills pills pills. sleeeeep. zzzzzzz.

Theres not many reviews about these pills on the interent so im not really sure what to expect, but ill let you know. It sais your sposed to combine it with exercise and a calorie controlled diet, which i already do so hopefully this will help me shred abit more weight. Got on the scales this morning and lost a little bit of weight, almost another kilo but not quiete. (0.8kg)

Anyways i spose i better drag my ass into the shower and scrub up for work ;)

stay thin & beautiful my babes ♥

xx

Changerooms,Kilo's,Sex & Caffeine ;)

Sorry my pretties, i have been away for a little bit i have had an incredibly busy week!! Heloooooo to my new followers =D ♥ OHHH and that chick up the top is hella pretty! Well i have lost another KG! Im happy, but as always want more to go heheh. Okay lets start off with when i went shopping with porscha on saturday... I dread changerooms, simply becuase when i try on clothes and they do not fit & cannot fit i get all flustered and i get annoyed... and i look in the changeroom mirror and get so angry at myself for not being able to fit into them. I am a size 8 at the top and size 10 in pants, and i fucking hate it when i want a nice pair of pants that dont fit me and thats the only size they carry in the shop!! ;( bugger. one day i wont have that problem. My chef pants are looking pretty baggy at the moment though, a few of the customers have noticed that they look over sized..but i just say all chef pants look daggy so i get away without leaving them sus of my eating habbits.

Had sexy time this morning, woop! bet you all wanted to know that! but when im on top i have this thing in the back on my mind thinking, fuck i feel like im sqaushing him..but i guess the sex is so good so i forget..but after i think hmm..if only i was 10 more kilos lighter.

Well the german chick at our work left, she was awesome, a few days before she left she was telling me about these caffeine tablets called hydroxycut..and as she was giving me a hug goodbye she pulled out a tampon packet and i was like "what the hell???" 'she is giving me a tampon' lol..and she pulled out these 2 tablets and put them in my hand...and i put them in my pocket before my boss saw. She said they help prevent appetite and loose weight and increse your metobolism. I took one at 1pm yesterday and i felt like i had a headache, and didnt really feel anything..i suppose it was only one tablet though. took the second one at 5pm and about 6pm i was bouncing off the walls like a jumping jelly bean, i had eyes like frypans and i looked in the mirror and they were really bloodshot..but i felt really happy i was zinging around and i was soo happy haha...i actually had a blast, i had so much energy; i was extra chatty and it was like i was egging people on to be happy and it just spread lol. sounds like im a stoner right about now, dosnt it? But i noticed that my metobolism was running a muck i had to go to the toilet so much, but i was drinking a shitload of water and i was pissing like a racehorse. i should have just lived in the toilet for the last part of my shift lol.

I wouldnt reccomend going on them though i woke up this morning and i was still pinging so to get rid of the extra energy i went for a walk., (only burnt like 80 cals according to my ipod haha) but i read on the internet they can give you liver damage & shit. Also being caffeine i thought i would have had problems with my sleep but i had a great sleep...but i guess after long term use, it would fuck you up pretty bad i suppose. so maybe ill just take a couple every now and then..just before the weekend so i feel all spazzy & happy =D

Alrighty intake for the day:
b: wholemeal toast w. butter & vegemite & 250 ml cup of orange juice (lets say 250 cals)
s: mint chocolate ice cream (300 cals) - badddd! but i guess ill treat myself once this week. i eat sugary stuff before 3pm as a rule.
l: garden salad with chicken,tomato,cucumber (150 cals)
d: - nothinnn. i dont eat after 6pm.

Leave me comments, i love you's. ♥♥
xx

Okay yes this is my 2nd post today, but..

:):):):) smileeeeee!
;);););)

Fighting Off Cakes,Cookies & Chocolate!!!?!?! =D

Felt pretty damm good when i woke up this morning..didnt eat anything after 6pm last night and am feeling the reward this morning ;) I had a 21st on last night but didnt end up going becuase it was a wednesday night and i didnt wanna binge after a hard days effort of resisting eating wedges & sour cream. Mmmmmm okay i work as a chef, if you didnt know that from my previous posts & such well now you know..i work with a chef who is 5 star trained in desserts, and omfg i love his food. his the bomb...but i hate it when he makes nice cakes!!! & his always saying how fat my ass is ;( damm. oh well elast he reminds me he could just not say anything then watch me explode at the sides. There is this lady at work and shes abit of a cougar, but not a very good looking one,lol, she preys on younger men and she wears these tight pants and you can see her g-string line..makes me sick. she has a huge stomach aswell..plus her hair cut dosnt help..it looks like a mushroom on her head lol lol!! im so mean but i love it ;p

Alright skinnies i need to find a subsitute for chocolate/cakes..i tried drinking hot milo..but milo is full of sugar. i have found these ice creams that are probly pretty fattening but have 300 cals..so if i eat that that is like one whole meal for the day for me and a snack lol..i try to eat frozen rasberries but i just want the taste of chocolate ;( help!

Do you know what is really weird, i can eat the same thing for months on end..i counted for 4 months straight i ate baked beans on 2 salada crackers with cream cheese for lunch every day and i friggen loved it so much i couldnt stop eating it, its not very fattening, and you can get low fat cream cheese..it sounds like a strange thing to eat..i kind of accidently just made it up one day and decided it tasted good and just kept eating it!!..but i did loose alot of weight, i mean that was my whole meal for the day plus a milo..not a very nutritional diet for anyone but i enjoyed eating it hhaha, plus it was summer so i was sweating alot and always walking around,shopping, lots of sexy time (LOL) and forgetting to eat..which is why i probly lost so much weight in the first place. I probly eat better now than i have ever did before becuase i care more about nutrients & vitamins.. i try to look after myself. sometimes. lol

So today gonna have a me day, going to pluck my eyebrows (cos waxing increases wrinkles on your face) shave my legs, paint my toe nails & fingers, get a hair chop, facial treatment & might go down to the local gym and get a spa massage, im in need of relaxation ;) then off to work to hang with my girls porscha & alexia..lucky we all work together! :D

Alrighty enough with my chattering, intake for today is:

b: 1 slice of wholemeal toast w. 1 scrambeled egg with chopped tomato,chives,low fat cheese,salt & pepper

l: garden salad w spinach,tomato,cucumber, baked chicken with tuscan spice & salt & pepper, laughing cow cheese

s: 1 weetbix or frozen yoghurt

d: - nothing again :D

Have a nice day my pretties ;)
xo

Just some inspiration "]

Heres some reverse & thinspo ;D enjoy my pretties x